First Ultrasound

we just came from our first ultrasound and i will tell you that the pain no longer matters - i fought back tears when we heard the cockeye's heart beat and was in awe the entire time.

our little one is not shy and spent most of the time looking right at us - which made getting the shots that the tech needed to complete the early test a little difficult but we eventually coaxed the little one to move and stop showing off. He/She was pretty active, is healthy and absolutely beautiful!

The tech attempted to tell - and was pretty sure - but we will let you guys judge for yourselves until we can confirm it at 20 weeks. Which also happens to be our next ultrasound.

I am actually 12 weeks and 6 days pregnant - which pushes up the due date a little - July 5 as opposed to July 11.

I seriously can't stop smiling - but enough typing - I know what you guys really want to see...


PICTURES!

a plum

sorry for not posting yesterday - it was not a good day! i am in a lot of pain, my whole right side goes from numb to shooting pains...the cockeye is on my nerve (haha - ouch) and has decided that he/she likes it there and doesn't plan on moving any time soon.

the cockey is the size of a plum - weighing in at .49 oz and 2.1 inches long (however, i have a feeling that this little cockeye will be bigger than average)

we have our ultrasound today at 3:15 - can't wait to post pictures and details. I just pray that everything is alright and we have a healthy baby on board.

i think that once i see the baby on the ultrasound screen - i will forget all about the pain and celebrate the fact that we are having a baby - which still seems a little unreal!

we started looking at daycare and child care options - so much to do and not that much time to do it. We are already behind, which is crazy because the cockey is only 12 weeks old and 28 weeks away from being born...we have our first appointment with a place in Rio Rancho that seems really nice, on Thursday at 1:00.

not sure if they even have openings but we want to go check it out and put our name on the list.

we will keep you posted!

From Daddy

Ok I admit that I have not utilized this as much as I should, actually I cant figure out how to have my comments included in the from Daddy side so I am using from Mommy with the Title "From Daddy" sorry but that is how it is going down folks.
I stayed home and ran some errands earlier this week and found myself inside Toys 'R' Us (Sorry the computer will not allow me to utilize a backwards R) looking at you guessed it toys...I also wandered to the baby section and started perusing the shelves for items that we would have to supply the little cockeye with kinda fun. 

I dont know what it is but I seem to be seeing more commercials about babies and such, I am sure that they have always been there but now that the little cockeye is on the way I am beginning to take notice to all of these wonderful messages!

Erin seems to be doing fine still sleepy and her back was hurting but if she is telling me the truth her back is feeling better.

I slipped up last night and something came out of my mouth the wrong way (imagine that) Erin was changing from her work cloths and I asked if she was starting to show or if...yep you guessed it....not repeating the whole thing...but I felt really bad and the way it came out was not what I mean...I guess I will just keep my mouth shut a little more than usual so that I do put my foot in it!

I am really excited for the first ultrasound!  Christmas is almost here but it does not feel that way.

11 Weeks in the life of a cockeye

The Cockeye is now the size of a lime!
The cockey currently enjoys a 1:1 ratio between body and head, and had skin so transparent that blood vessels show right through it. But fingers and toes are no longer webbed, and hair follicles, tooth buds and nail beds are forming - setting up a significantly more attractive future (not that we had to worry about how attractive the cockey will be - i mean just look at his/her parents!

The cockeye (now about two inches long) has been pretty busy this week, growing hair follicles, fingernails, and ovaries (if its a girl). The cockey has distinct human characteristics by now, with hands and feet in front of the cockey's body, with ears nearly in their final shape, open nasal passages on the tip of its tiny nose, a tongue and palate in the mouth and visible nipples. what else makes the cockey look human? Those hands and feet have individual fingers and toes (meaning good-bye to those frog like webbed hands and feet)

Tomorrow marks one week until our ultrasound - I know that i am pretty pumped about it - i can only imagine how excited mike is!

Telling Grandma...

Finally - the flip video of us telling Grandma (my mom) about the newest addition to our family!

enjoy...although it is pretty much just shock...i promise she was way more excited as the weekend goes on!

One week until Christmas!

Happy Friday and happy almost 11 weeks...time seems to be flying its so crazy to think that we are only two weeks away from our second trimester!

I had a midwife appointment on Monday, it went really well and I really like our midwife. She is extremely knowledgeable, kind, caring and genuinely interested in our lives - which is a nice change from the typical doctor patient relationship.

A few more tests, some talking and an attempt to hear the heartbeat - which i didn't hear but our midwife said that i sound like a very healthy pregnant woman, and that the baby is just too small at this point in time to hear the heartbeat - its not uncommon to have to wait until 12 weeks to hear a heartbeat.

My theory is that God just didn't want me to hear the heartbeat before Mike so we now both have to wait for our ultrasound.

Feeling well - found out that one of my cousins, who lives down in Florida, and her husband welcome the newest member of their family to the world yesterday - Eleanor Dorothy or Ellie Dot for short! Mom and baby are doing fine. So exciting!!

This week also marked the first birthday of a Mr. James Lukes...my cousin's son! What a year it has been, but James is so loved and adored by Joey and our family - his birthday party is this weekend and of course, as with everything in life, Mike and I have to miss it! I just keep praying that we will find our way closer to home - I am not sure how much longer i can keep doing this!

I have done NO Christmas shopping - i am at a loss as to what to buy most of our family...oh well, i will try and get most of it done this weekend.

All for now - xoxo

10 Weeks

We are now 10 weeks pregnant - 210 (roughly) days to go!

Baby's now the size of a prune!With bones and cartilage starting to form and vital organs beginning to function, baby is making major progress. Body length will almost double in the next three weeks, and arm joints are now working. (Soon, legs will start working too.)

For Mommy...Notice a network of tiny blue veins crisscrossing your already achy breasts and (sorry) disappearing waistline? Though you may not love the new look, these veins carry the extra blood needed to nourish your burgeoning baby. You also might see the effects of pregnancy on your face -- in the form of major breakouts, that is. (Thanks, hormones.)

Observations: I have found the network of blue veins but they are not on my stomach yet - just running across my boobs (which by the way are HUGE) and my upper thighs. Lots of lotion to try and avoid stretch marks, but i have to stop by Wal-Mart to grab some bio oil to help combat those bad boys as well. My face is only slightly breaking out - but I am trying to be vigilant on washing it and not touching it, as well as only wearing makeup when I absolutely need to.  Apparently my uterus is the size of a grapefruit right now...what is with all these fruit references!

 

sluggish monday!

Happy Monday - while i would like to be able to say that i was productive either day this weekend, the fact is that i spent much of my time snuggled on the couch with two very cuddly puppies and a ton of reality trash tv...oh the good times! i did manage to muster enough energy to take the dogs for a walk yesterday, and then followed that promptly with a two hour nap. I also cleaned most of the house to the best of my ability. I need to get some of the natural cleaning products so that i can actually clean without worrying about what the fumes are doing to the cockeye.

Mike told the rest of his family this weekend - they are super pumped! I just wish we lived closer so they could see us and the cockeye more!

Still working on the flip video of us telling our parents. to be honest - i didn't even take the flip video out this weekend - which would also be why i forgot it this morning. I have to run out to "drive" a few boards near bernalillo this morning - so i will grab it while i am there.

Mike comes home today!!!

Doctor's appointment at 3:15 - not sure what they will do, but i am hoping there is some sort of heart beat test or something...i can hardly wait for the ultra sound on December 28th!!!

I am so gassy - my dear family and friends should be glad that they are not around me - i am surprised the dogs want to be as close to me as they do. I am hoping this passes soon as i would hate for my husband to have to experience this extremely unattractive side of me.

Oh well - the joys of pregnancy.

I will post a separate entry with information on what's going on with the cockey this week!

the cockeye misses daddy...

Mike is in SC for the weekend - and both me and the cockeye are pretty lonely and sad...sleeping was not easy last night - you just sort of get used to snuggling next to someone. Plus, even though the entire side of the bed was free, og and london still slept on top of me...so pretty awesome!

Mom asked if i could call on Monday to let mike here the heart beat - if they do that - or at least flip video it. So i have to remember to bring the flip and make sure my phone is charged.

I am tired - its been a long week with lots of challenges - but in all, i feel ok!

just can't wait for my baby daddy (yes i just said that) to get back to me!

starting to show...

oddly enough - i think i am starting to show - from everything i read, and trust me, there has been a lot, its not uncommon. I guess everyone is different.

i have gained about 5-7 pounds - depends on the day and what the lil cockeye had a craving for the night before (wink wink) but that is since the wedding and i basically stopped eating in the weeks leading up to that special day...so i am not surprised that now that i am eating more regularly and splurging on the occasional sweet treat - i am gaining weight. For a few weeks its seemd like every time i stepped on the scale i was growing at a rediculous rate - but it has started to level out.

i have been living in big sweaters and leggings and doing my best to "hide" the additional weight and slight bump protruding from my mid-section.

last night, mike asked if "there was anything there" and after he touched it - he was like...wow i think there is and its hard...which is nice to know that its not fat that is causing me to have this round bulge!

i will attempt to take a picture and post it this weekend - i was going to wait until the start of our second trimester, but i guess i have to start somewhere.

mike is out of town this weekend - he is visiting friends and family in SC and attending Anthony & Amanda's wedding on 12.11.10. I wish i could be there, i know it will be beautiful and amazing - and i miss everyone very much!

He is also going to share the news with the rest of his family this weekend - i know mom and dad and jessie will be excited because they can start talking about it with people other than us and themselves. I wish i was there to see their faces - i know they will be so excited!

Doctor's appointment on Monday - Mike won't be back from SC, so i have to field this one on my own - oh well...i am sure i can handle it. There is a part of me that really wants them to do some sort of test (like a heart beat or something) but another part of me that doesnt want mike to miss anything.

we will see!

pictures to come soon!

Tuesday as measured in small successes

As life continues to move at well...the speed of life - i find its the little victories that seem to get me through various parts of the day.

For example...my amazing husband didn't put up too much of a fuss (only a mini one) when i came home with two HUGE bags of clothes from the mall (you are welcome Express and Old Navy) because i believe he saw how happy i was that i actually have clothes that fit.

And this morning - well getting dressed was simple - i didn't change my outfit 10 times or stand in front of the mirror to figure out how i am going to hide my extra weight or little pouch that is starting to stick out...i just picked out clothes that i knew fit, put them on, tossed on a pair of heels and i was out the door! it was really a great feeling!

I am also pretty pumped because i managed to sleep in until 6:15 this morning and still make it to work on time...i think that goes hand in hand with not changing 10 times.

work is cold...and i have a ton of things to do...mike leaves Thursday for South Carolina and I am sad because I wish that i could go - but it just didn't work out.

still have not taken our holiday picture...we are totally slacking!

ice cream and mcdonalds

and i wonder why my pants don't fit -

the cockeye wanted micky d's for lunch today and ice cream last night after dinner...

yes we will go with that!

i will say - i might just have to come to terms with the fact that i am going to gain weight - not meaning that i should gain a lot of weight - but still!

and when you can't drowned your sorrows in a glass (or bottle) of wine or a few good beers after a crappy work day...the next best thing really is ICE CREAM!

nine weeks and a little annoyed

Well today marks the nine week point - which means that our little cockeye is the size of a green olive! And even bigger news...cockeye is now officially a fetus!

i am also finding it harder and harder to fit into my clothes - really just around my belly...while i doubt i am showing yet - all of my books seem to say this is normal! off to do a little retail therapy tonight to ensure that i have some good transitional options for the next few months.

in case you need a good laugh...i actually popped a button on a shirt this morning because my boobs are HUGE! this it totally making me rethink that need for a boob job as i am not sure they would fit in anything!

I am finding that i have very little tolerance for people lately - and i am not sure if its just because i am annoyed with work in general or because i am pregnant - or maybe a little of both.

little things just rub me the wrong way and its totally making me not care when a co-worker goes storming off without elaborating on what he or she wants...i am not a mind reader my friend!

either way -

we have a doctors appointment on the 13...i am hoping that we will get to hear cockeye's heart beat.

happy Monday...happy nine weeks and happy 3 months - which means only a few more weeks in our first trimester!

sick and way behind...

so i just realized that is it Thursday - and it has been more than a week since our last post. I will try to post the videos this weekend of us telling the grandparents. It was pretty amazing...i think mostly they were just in shock.

i have totally been slacking on updating the blog - however, i can't say the same thing about the rest of my life...couple that with a terrible migraine yesterday and fighting the flu...and i am sure you can see my many issues.

i am at work today - but i have quarantined myself in my office (door closed and everything) - with a note that says "FLU/PINK EYE...enter at your own risk" - worst part is i really can't take anything for either issue. I just hope that Mike doesn't get this as well. I am going to have him call rissy to get tips on how to properly follow me around with a can of Lysol and a thing of Clorox wipes...she pretty much has it down from Freshman Year.

update on our doctor's appointment...

we went to the high risk clinic on Tuesday and met with a few doctors...they asked a bunch of questions and did a few tests - plus reviewed my blood work that they did last time...

they said that i am extremely healthy, that i didn't need to come to the high risk clinic and that everything should go a normal as a pregnancy can go. I know it was a huge relief for both of us - especially me - because the last thing i wanted was to put the baby at any sort of increased risk because of my thyroid problem. However, they told me to keep taking my meds, and keep doing what I am doing - as everything seems to be working well.

we then had to decide on spending the next seven months of our journey with a Midwife or a OB...we opted for a midwife. However, the doctors will be available should we need anything.

Next appointment is December 13th to meet with the midwife that will help up along this road...and December 28th is our first Ultrasound!!! That will put me at just over 12 weeks. Not sure we can tell the sex yet...but keep your fingers crossed - of course we want a healthy baby...and we will be ecstatic either way...but we both really just want to know!

ok - back to work...going to try and tough it out today and tomorrow and spend much of the weekend sleeping and hopefully getting better!