this sh!t is hard

Grandma Jean (the amazing woman that watches little bug every day) called me this morning at 7a to tell me she was sick.

So that meant that (since daddy stayed home with little bug yesterday) mommy was on deck!

I am not going to lie - I love my job...I love going to work everyday and feeling like I am really good at what I do...especially because being a mom is one of those jobs that you really never ever feel like you are good at what you do...

But I was pretty excited to spend the day with my bug and the dogs...I figured we could play, watch sesame street, clean, run to the store, do laundry...I will stop there, I had a few more things on my list of things I wanted to accomplish today - but anyone who spends a day with their 17 month old knows that my early morning aspirations were totally unrealistic!

So here we are - it's 3:40 and bug went down for her nap about 20 minutes ago...and I am sitting here debating whether to use this time to take a shower or finish cleaning or fold laundry or lay down and call it a day...HOLY CRAP!

 I am about ready to skin my dogs, the house is a mess, i tossed dinner in the crock pot but who's to say i did that right, I am a freaking mess, I have food, dirt, dust, and weird stains on my clothes...the same ones that I had on when I woke up this morning...my hair is a disaster...I seriously look like a homeless person and all I can think about is who I can bribe (the hubs?) to pick up a bottle of wine for me so I don't have to leave the house to "relax"

I text two of my friends who are stay at home moms...I make it a point to tell them how much I respect what they do and how hard I know they work...but I really felt the need to share this with both of them once more.

my text went something like this...

"1) I have so much respect for you 2) I need a glass of wine 3) If I stayed home everyday I would find ways to justify cracking open a bottle of wine or beer right after the last sip of coffee in the morning" 

Oddly enough...I can manage a multi-million dollar ad budget, foster the relationship between my company and our agency, motivate and manage four employees and collaborate with a highly efficient, hard working, brilliant team of successful individuals...and not to pat myself on the back, but I am pretty darn good at all of that...

but for the record...this SH!T is HARD!!!!

CHEERS!